what motherhood means to me right now

me and jules

It means…

letting my coffee get cold.

studying all the methods of sleep training and ultimately deciding to do it my way. She was/is getting heavier and squirmier, so rocking her to sleep just wasn’t an option for me anymore, especially when it would take almost an hour of bouncing her around in my arms. Talk about a workout! I just couldn’t bear a “cry it out” approach, but other “no cry” techniques just weren’t working. So I just started putting her in the crib and humming her favorite lullabies until she fell asleep. She might be the only person in the world to like my singing 😉 Eventually, I was able to leave the room now and again. Now all I do is just lay her down in the crib with two pacifiers (one to suck on and one to play with—she’s got idle hands) and leave the room. The only times I go in is  when she gets twisted up or hits her head on the side of the crib, in which case I’ll quickly straighten her out and/or comfort her. Some nights are better than others, but mostly I can’t complain. She falls asleep on her own in the crib and that’s all I can ask for. Naps, however, are different and she still needs to be held and rocked a little bit for those, but the rocking usually doesn’t exceed 10 minutes. We can deal with that for now.

always worrying and wondering if I’m doing the right thing. Do I not take her out for fresh air enough? Does she need more cuddle time? Am I stimulating her enough?

knowing that the worrying will only get worse as she gets older.

sometimes running on 4 hours of interrupted sleep. Coffee helps. But then…see #1 above

lots of pinching and squeezing of her cheeks, thighs, butt, toes, nose, you name it. I just can’t help myself.

enjoying her now at 8 months, but still very much looking forward to her first birthday.

getting really good at multitasking. I can hold her with one hand and prepare a bottle with the other. MAD SKILLZ.

realizing that sometimes the answers may not be in parenting books or the Babycenter message board. It’s about going with my instincts and taking cues from Jules. Hence, successful—and mostly-cry-free—sleep training!

also knowing that sometimes the answers can be found on the internet. When in doubt, Google.

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